Entry: Happy? Unhappy? Sunday, December 12, 2004



Semua orang cakap, it's up to ourselves to choose to be happy or not. But I have one question, can we really choose it? It's like, hari ni aku nak happy...so, happy je la..padahal mood tak ok...esok plak, nak pilih tak happy plak, so..moody je memanjang padahal dlm hati happy plak...pretending kan?...

For me, to be happy or unhappy, itu bukan pilihan. Do you really want to pretending that you're happy while u're not? Kalau buat camtu dgn tujuan taknak menyusahkan org lain, it's up to you. But ask yourself, you cannot always do that. You cannot always make other person happy.

To be happy or unhappy depends on the situation itself. Bukannya pilihan. If it's a choice, than it would be easier, right?

As for me right now, I'm happy with my current lifestyle but I'm not happy with what I've been through this year & last year. From the middle of 2003 until the middle of 2004, it has been so awful. I wish I could wipe it all away. Things never been into my pathway target during that time. Being used, been lied, being ignored, kena jadi mangsa fitnah, janji dimungkiri, been hurt, been betrayed, feel lost, been left out in the dark, been kicked when you're down, been on the edge of breaking down, been stabbed and more, u name it.


Lembu punya susu, sapi dapat nama. Kacang lupakan kulit. Habis madu sepah dibuang. Tisu tandas. Bila dah tak berguna & taknak guna, buang camtu je. Orang lain pulak yang dapat privillege. Camtu perumpamaannya. Alhamdulillah...

However, life goes on. Aku just terkilan sbb I put a lot of effort, sacrifices & my precious time but at the end I got nothing. Hasil usaha kita, orang lain yg dapat nama. Bukannya aku nak harapkan balasan, tapi at least dihargai. Tapi orang lain yang dihargainya.

But all that makes me a better man. Maybe a better life, who knows. But still I'm not happy with all things that happened. Felt like wanna take a revenge but I know, it's not worth it. Balasannya akan tiba, hanya masa menentukan.

   7 comments

petz
December 13, 2004   07:15 AM PST
 
Syabas.....aku terharu nih ...
amyz
December 13, 2004   08:53 AM PST
 
dugaan tu. mudah2an ada rahmat disebaliknya. ;-)
naina
December 13, 2004   09:15 AM PST
 
there's always rainbow after the rain.
aleeya
December 13, 2004   09:30 AM PST
 
being happy?its all in mind la nd..
u choose to b happy or not..

if u feel like u wanna cry n weep..
u can..
u choose when u want it to end too..

n start feeling happy again..
Sind
December 13, 2004   10:46 AM PST
 
Believe me, you're not alone.. :)
What you have mentioned.. I think I know how it feels to be mistreated. Whatever it is just be strong!! Insya Allah, everything happened for a reason.. what goes around comes around, someday mesti ada balasan utk org2 yg sakitkan hati kita. Bye for now~!
pak din
December 13, 2004   02:48 PM PST
 
susah cari mamat lelaki mcm ko bincang benda mcm ni secara terbuka.

Bagi aku, shit camne pun hidup.... sbb aku pernah berhadapan situasi antara hidup dan mati, hidup ini terlalu bernilai untuk dirungut. Terlalu bernilai untuk dinilai dgn perkara yg remeh temeh.

Skrg aku baru berfikir tentang syukur pada berjuta nikmat yg kita kecap tapi tak sedar.

mimie
December 14, 2004   12:23 PM PST
 
I wanna share with ya' this song..

SIMPLE PLAN LYRICS
"Welcome To My Life"
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
But no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
[x2]
Welcome to my life [x3]

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