Entry: Luahan... Tuesday, November 16, 2004



Tadi aku gi GSC Midvalley tgk 2 movies...The Terminal & White Chicks. 11.45am - 2pm...2.45pm-4.45pm...Movie Marathon..hehe..Dua-dua best gile...Aku gi sorang je...tapi dok tergelak cam ade member2 kat sebelah..hehe..mmg lawak habis dua-dua citer nih...

Semalam lak, raya kedua...aku gi Chili's kat KLCC...lunch kat sana dgn family...kempunan aku nak makan Skillet Fries...it's something like...a bunch of french fries, masak dgn sos daging macam spaghetti..pastu campur dgn cheese...perghhh...for only RM13.50...mmg berbaloi..tapi tak dpt makan semalam sebab mak aku tak kasi...uhuksss...dia kata nanti membazir...ishk ishk...padahal sebelum ni kalau gi Chili's, sure makan Skillet Fries tuh...mmg tak penah miss...

Hmmm...I know I'm not handsome, I'm not the person with an athletic type of body, I'm not cute or whatsoever...to you, I'm just a fat & ugly person...Maybe that's why you just wanna walk away...and be with some good looking person...well, to tell the truth, after all things that happened, I'm still worth it...you know why...

Although sometimes I lied, but I never lied about my feelings towards you...If only you could give me a chance now, it would be like a dream come true. I've changed. Changed to a person that you wished for(If you wished..). I learned a lot of things from my past mistakes. And now I understand. Truly understand. But what I don't really understand is why u said the next person u love after your family is me while u're running away. Why?

Everybody make mistakes. And so am I. You said I'm sick. Well, you don't know what was behind all that. I've been pushed down. I was into my big family problems. And you suddenly, just wanna walk away. You never ask me why I was like that and I don't wanna tell you coz I don't want to susahkan sesapa. After you left, it's getting worse. I was thrown away from my group project. Then, I got into even more bigger problems. You don't wanna know. It's personal. That's why I always wanna see you coz you're the only one who can make me feel happy at that time. You're the "penenang jiwa".

But now, Alhamdulillah. Although all the problems came when I was in my final year degree, I've managed to be successful. Even though rezeki melimpah ruah mana pun skang ni, my heart still doesn't feel happy. I'm not lonely. I'm not desperate. I'm not hunger for love. But I just want a chance. That's all.

"Aku cinta kepadamu,
Hanya itu yang ku tahu,
Lupakanlah kenangan pahit,
Kita bina hidup baru..." Kenangan Lalu by Flybaits

P/S : Episod Mencari Sinar akan disambung esok..InsyaAllah kalau aku tak bz..esok dah nak keje balik dahhh...

   8 comments

Aleeya
November 17, 2004   09:30 AM PST
 
still thinking of her..?
petz
November 17, 2004   09:42 AM PST
 
Ilek laaa bang...meh pekena kambing kat pandan...ko gak kata sedap.Be happy.....
hafizismail
November 17, 2004   10:25 AM PST
 
Kalau semua org tgk rupa dan takrifan kecantikan, kehenseman etc etc pada semua org tu sama, dunia tak aman.. semua org berebut pada yg satu.

anyway, yg penting, be optimistic...bunga bukan sekuntum ;) hati kena baik sbb hati akan di bawa sampai mati, muka akan expired bile2 masa..

rilek lar bang :)
banai
November 17, 2004   04:48 PM PST
 
hmmm ape yg ko mahu? ape yg ko nak? kesempatan? hati dan perasaan? bukit berkembar? muahahahah hmmmm kkdg aku paham ape yg ko rase.. tp kkdg aku kompius aku paham ke idak?

ko paham ke ape aku taip nih andy ku sayang? hikhikhik selamat raya.. :)
jonee
November 17, 2004   05:16 PM PST
 
lek nd..aku ade..leh citer kt aku cam biasa laa..kata geng lama..insyaAllah mane aku leh nasihat, bleh laa..kalu taleh tu..try doa k..insyaAllah...ok ..selamat raya maaf zahir batin k...takecare bro
Abu Hurairah
November 17, 2004   06:00 PM PST
 
Ehh sudahlah...tuh. Jgn sedih sangat tentang kisah lama. Ia lebih berbaloi jika diluahkan di sini. Dapat juga meringankan beban...sikit.
wanda
November 17, 2004   06:32 PM PST
 
ermm dun be so low profile to d max..ur ok wat andy.witty,smart n hey baby face apa.comei

okie waiting 4 ur nxt episode..hehe
tc k
maman
November 17, 2004   08:47 PM PST
 
darling, munchkinpie, smoochie pooo.... eh salah,, dude!. wake up. take a look around. she aint anywhere near u no more.

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